Thoughts on how to be single again in your thirties after a very long marriage, four kids and a PHD. Someone hand me a rule book I think I need one!
Lost without a map and the damn compass is BROKEN and I'm out of cigarettes@!\
Published on April 25, 2004 By cinnamonstone In Personal Relationships
Oh lord have mercy on my soul. I've been seeing this guy for four months and he's Catholic. So you know what that means...you do everything BUT. So what now? Can someone please pass me a rule book? Leaving issues. I'm caught, trapped in my own web. My ex left Steve left, so is Rob going to leave too? Its interesting, people say well if he doesn't do the penetration deal what does he do? I reckon I'm going to have his goddamn tongue bronzed when he carks it. If more women were honest they'd admit oral sex is IT. I always threaten that I'm going to take a questionairre and if they say they don't give head then you are disqualified!! Had a big party to go to last night. And in walks my boyfriend and I have been all casual as all hell till this point and i see him and my heart does this skip thing. And I think my god mate you are beautiful. And that's when it hits you ...you love this person..and there isn't a goddamn thing you can do about it. But what's the alternative? You shut your soul up in a box for the rest of your life? Loving is scary and its fraught with risk. But we keep doing it...we're like lemmings heading for the cliff just point me in the right direction and I'll dive over. Mmm mmm mmm...I just don't know...I adore this man, can it please not blow up in my face? My bed smells like him my fingers smell like him...lord have mercy upon this poor misguided fool....
Comments
on Apr 25, 2004
Love isnt everything!
on Apr 25, 2004
Au contraire, it is.
on Apr 25, 2004
Love isn't everything ...but it sure as hell is something ... something wonderful
on Apr 25, 2004
You know I never realised how important love WAS. And that is saying something having been married for 16 years. All the degrees in the world all the accomplishments all the money and acclaim don't mean a damn thing if you don't have love in your life. Jesus said talked about having the faith to move mountains but without love it was nothing. And you can apply that to spiritual love or love of the human kind....

Cheers:)